(re)lapse
let me tell you this interlock is not always strength
but sometimes a downfall I am mostly borrowed limbs
& digits today I fix that clasp by letting it fall open
it is the only way I am trying not to flinch it makes
things worse & I don’t want to show you how in
these fallow times I use up every good thing slow
today I am easily miss-aligned mistaking neglect
for erasure or maybe just plain forgetting it’s not
purely passive sometimes it’s a sport & while I
lack the muscle tone it needs I’ll make up for it
with exhaustion today I am not at home but out
learning to be intimate with stones learning to be
dangerously compressed & lousy I carry weight
when I could be a filament burning delicate coiled
alight & there are all sorts of judgments to be made
but today I am seeking to be gluttonous
as this want this longing
to be held not held
to breathe but not as you taught me
Blood knot
You’ll mistake it for nothing, then. A moment, in which your arms
were a soft parenthesis, your palm open across my back. You pull me
in like a breath and I let it out slow; how love proved a slow decay,
how he etched himself in the marrow. And how I learned fear before
I learned to hope. Now, while you teach me how a blood knot ties
Jupiter is hanging over Brixton. And we mistake her for a star.
Zelda’s work has been widely published in journals, magazines and anthologies including HVTN, The Interpreters House, Popshot, RAUM and Under the Radar. Her first collection, The Girl in the Dog-tooth Coat, was published by Bare Fiction Press in 2015.